Wednesday, October 29, 2008

A Day In My (New) Life

Hampir sebulan aku ngejalanin hari-hariku sebagai stay home mom. My day to day activity is pretty much the same. Jam segini Kukka bangun, trus mandi, nyusu, ngamuk, tidur and so on, over and over again. Nyaris rutin. Right to the very second of the day. Di sela-sela itu, aku berusaha nyempetin diri untuk tetep eksis di dunia maya :D Kinda hard coz my baby is literally 24 hours with me since I don’t have a nanny. Kalo Kukka lagi anteng ato tidur sih santai! Tapi kalo lagi clingy, ya banyak YMan & e-mail yang ngga kebales deh heheheh...

Being with Kukka all the time makes me realize. That being a stay home mother is one hell of a “job” :) Sekarang juga aku baru ngerti apa artinya “Me Time” & how important it is. Karena biar bagaimanapun, everybody deserves some rest. Even mothers :) Tadinya kalo ada bagian di baby books or sites soal “Me Time” ini aku lewatin. Coz, I thought, oh come on! Why would I need a “Me Time”? Sebelum ada anak juga udah puas kali! Ngga butuh lagi lah! Now it’s time to spend every second with my little precious. Boy, was I wrong :)

Yang ada malah kecapean. Bukannya hanya fisik, tapi juga mental. Begitu Kukka nangis apalagi ngamuk, bawaannya jadi tambah stress & ikut-ikutan cranky ato nangis kaya Si Baiyi. Yang sebenernya biasa aja jadi kerasa beraaat banget. Capeee banget! At the end, being a mom feels like just another job. No fun & tiring & all you want is “go home” early. It’s a very sad thought, I must say... That’s why sekarang aku lagi berusaha untuk punya waktu untuk diri sendiri.

My “Me Time” begins at 9 pm. That’s when I let my maid hold Kukka while I have my dinner. Sambil nunggu makanan “turun”, aku nonton TV. Abis itu baru mandi & shalat Isya. My “Me Time” lasts only about half an hour. Paling lama sejam. But it was worth every second :) If during that time Kukka is crying & looking at me in the eyes, as if she was saying “Oh why don’t you want to hold me, Mommy? Why do you let Mba hold me? Don’t you love me anymore?”, aku berusaha untuk cuek :D I would just kiss her chubby cheeks & tell her to be patient :) Setelah itu, I'm back in business, baby!

But so far I think my “Me Time” is not yet enough :( I feel like I still need something to keep me going coz sometimes I still cry from exhaustion. I also never been a big fan of routine. Predictability sometimes annoys me. So I have to find a way to do or get things spontaneously (..... Spontan kok direncanain! Kumaha sih iyeu :p)

Ow well... They say practice makes perfect. Paling ngga dalam waktu sebulan aku udah bisa find a way to adjust my life dengan jadwalnya Kukka. Let’s see what 2 months or more will give me ;)


Friday, October 17, 2008

Arisan???

Kepada Ibu2 Warga Cluster Emerald Townhouse Bintaro Jaya

Salam hangat, dengan ini kami mengundang Ibu2 pada Acara Arisan Bulanan :
Hari/Tanggal: Sabtu, 18 Oktober 2008
Waktu: 07.00 WIB
Tempat: Taman Depan Emerald Townhouse

Mengingat banyaknya kegiatan keluarga di akhir pekan, mohon kehadirannya tepat waktu.

Salam, a.n Ibu2 Emerald Townhouse

Oooowkay! Let me get this straight. First of all, I’m not into arisan thingy. The only reason I participated once or twice at the office was to help make the event...merrier? Sure I could use the “extra” cash, but I don’t think I’m that kind of a housewife :) Kenapa juga harus “arisan” sih? Kenapa ngga ada ide laen? I mean, it’s so typical. Ibu-ibu = arisan. I refuse to settle with “typical” things! Hehehe..

Second. It’s 7 o’clock IN THE MORNING. Do I need to say more? Yes, I do! Heck, I was too lazy to wake up THAT early for work. Apalagi “cuma” buat arisan?!?!? :D

So, yeah... 99.99% I won’t show up tomorrow morning. One thing got me thinking tho. Kalo ngga dateng, bakal dibilang sombong ngga ya sama ibu-ibu laen? Tadi aja pas jalan-jalan sore keliling townhouse sama Kukka, I just exchanged a couple of words to the other ladies in the park, then I went home. Bukan hanya karena aku ngga jago basa-basi, tapi Kukka juga udah ngantuk & it was too windy :p Padahal, really. I’m not good at this kind of things. Ica lebih jago kalo dalam hal beginian, meeting new people, socializing. Besides, I think people always consider him nicer than me. Hey, can he go to arisan instead of me? :D

Lagipula kaya gini-gini makes gossiping even more inevitable. Ah, what am I saying! Intinya sih aku males ikutaaan hihihihi! Hmm... Tapi kalo aku ngga ikutan, bakal di-banned ngga ya sama yang laen?? Digosipin? Dibilang sombong, dianggap ngga mau mingle etc.

Oh my... This feels like high school all over again :(


Thursday, October 16, 2008

Kata suamiku hari ini:

"Liat Kukka senyum tuh menyejukkan hati ya..."



Well. YOUR words menyejukkan hati aku, Mun :)


Tuesday, October 14, 2008

"Hi! My name is Farika. I'm a housewife"

Harusnya hari ini aku ninggalin Kukka di rumah neneknya.
Harusnya hari ini aku mulai kerja lagi.
Harusnya hari ini aku mulai meras ASI di sela-sela jam kerja.
Harusnya hari ini aku lagi nangis-nangis sendiri di WC kantor karena kangen Kukka.
Harusnya hari ini aku ngga sabar nunggu jam pulang.

Alhamdulillah, semua itu ngga perlu aku jalanin.

Detik ini, Kukka ada di pelukan aku.
Bisa aku ciumin setiap saat.
Bisa aku susuin setiap dia lapar.
Bisa aku ketawain kalo dia ngomel.
Bisa aku bacain cerita kalo dia bosen.
Bisa aku nyanyiin kalo dia ngantuk.
Bisa aku peluk kalo dia sakit dan takut.

Alhamdulillah. I never been so sure in my life, that I've made the best decision.

For my daughter & for me.