Monday, May 25, 2009

Heartbroken

Okay. This is not how I pictured it would be.

If I ever had to leave Kukka with her grandparents, to spend 2 or 3 nights alone with her dad, I imagined we would be in a romantic place. Or in some happening scene, where babies are “not allowed” :)

Tapi kenyataannya, aku harus ninggalin Kukka di rumah Opa & Neti-nya karena bapanya dirawat di rumah sakit. Dengue fever....

12 years by his side, I have never seen Ica in so much pain. And the worst part was there’s nothing I could do for him. I couldn’t make his pain go away. I couldn’t help him sleep tight at night, or ever. I was so afraid to even hug him. I was afraid I would hurt him even more. All I could do was cry... When he wasn’t looking...

Yang bikin tambah stress juga, si pa dokter baru “memvonis” Ica kena DBD tuh hari kedua di RS. Sebelumnya kita semua di awang-awang yang sangat ngga mengenakkan. Kebayang ngga sih takutnya kaya apa, ngga tau kena apa, sakit apa!?!? Aku jadi emosian :D Cerewet sama perawat-perawat, gatel pengen nanya ini-itu sama dokter. Sialnya, ngga sempet ketemu pa dokter karena pas dia meriksa Ica, aku lagi pulang ke rumah mertua untuk ngurus Kukka.

Ah yes... My other baby.

It’s amazing to see how a 10 months old baby can be so understanding. Sejak lahir, Kukka ngga pernah tidur jauh dari aku. Paling jauh cuma beda 10 langkah sama aku. Tiba-tiba 3 hari yang lalu dia harus tidur sama kakek-neneknya. Tanpa ada “latihan” sebelumnya. Ajaibnya, Kukka tidur pules bablas sampe pagi. Ngga ada tuh bangun-bangun tengah malem minta disusuin atau digendong-gendong. Padahal sebelum bapanya sakit, Kukka bangun 2-3 kali (lagi) tiap malem. Setiap aku lagi di RS, Kukka juga ngga pernah rewel atau ngerepotin siapa-siapa. Makan lahap, mandi pinter, bobo mau, maen apalagi :) Tapi begitu aku muncul di depan mukanya, langsung deh manjanya keluar. Ngerengek ngga jelas, ngomel-ngomel sambil matanya nyureng ngeliatin aku ;)) Tapi begitu aku pergi lagi, back to *manis mode* :)

Tonight is my 3rd night away from my precious baby, to be right by my big baby’s side :) Meskipun trombositnya masih turun, he looks much better than before. Tonight he's able to sleep & snore (again :p) without the need of a sleeping pill. Insya Allah, he will get better & better every day.

My tears are still here tho. Each time I have to wave my baby daughter goodbye...


5 comments:

meliwluthfie said...

get well soon Ica. Jaga badan farika, jangan sampe masuk angin :D

alia said...

*hugs*

Hopes Ica gets well soon Far :)

enggar said...

tante frik, hope mas ica will get better soon
kamu juga jaga kesehatan jangan sampe gantian sakit yaa :)
btw aku bacanya terharu gini, pengen nangis (hehehe pengaruh PMS)

kekehusain said...

Kesian. Semoga cepet sembuh ya, Dol... Lo jangan lupa jaga kondisi, makan yang banyak. Ga' lucu kan kalo lo malahan ikut-ikutan sakit...

ella said...

hi rik, sorry to hear your hubby is sick with DB. aku juga baru keluar dari RS hr minggu kemaren. jurus jitu untuk naikin trombosit adalah minum jus kurma. just buy a kilo of dates, pick out the seeds and blend it with water. ampuh, bahkan lebih cepat naiknya daripada pake angkak. hope it works and God bless u.