Tuesday, June 22, 2010


Another year gone, reduced from this thing I called life.

What have I been doing? What have I become?

What have I achieved these past 34 years?

Have I been a devoted servant to Allah SWT?

Have I been a good daughter to my loving parents?

Have I been a faithful wife to my other half?

Have I been a loving mother to my only child?

Have I been a loyal friend to my caring friends?

Have I become a better person than years before?

I can’t help questioning because as the years go by, I realize that life is not getting any easier. There are times when I feel that I’m living a problem-free, super-easy, happy life. I would laugh and smile and dance up and down, wondering why some people can’t stop complaining about their lifes.

But when the wheel turned down, as in life it always does, I would feel like the most miserable person on earth. Nobody seemed to care about my feelings and the people I love were taking me for granted. Then I would cry, being depressed and ungrateful. Forgetting about all the wonderful things that Allah have been giving me since the second I was born.

As I get older, I should have turn wiser and better. But am I? Wiser? Better? I don’t know... All I know that life is so god damn hard and with all the things that happen in this world, it’s even harder for a person to BE and STAY good.

So today, as I woke up this morning, I put on a smile and said to myself:

“Hi! I’m Farika. I’m 34 years old and I’m blessed.”

I’ve been reciting these words in my head again and again, and hope that they’ll help me to stay sane and focused for at least another year ahead (unless Allah has another plan, of course :D). Insya Allah I can be a better woman than I am today and be a worthy soul to my God in the afterlife.



Queerine said...

Happy birthdayyyy!!! ♥ ♥

carol said...

farika....happy bday yaaa....

Endah Dhewani said...

happy birthday Farika....cadeu tinggal pilih nih...smuanya python ya...heheheh