Friday, April 15, 2022

About Dreams

dream
/drēm/
noun
  1. 1. 
    a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep.
    "I had a recurrent dream about falling from great heights"
    Similar:
    fantasy
    nightmare
    vision
    hallucination
    • 2. 
      a cherished aspiration, ambition, or ideal.
      "I fulfilled a childhood dream when I became champion"
      Similar:
      ambition
      aspiration
      hope
      goal
      design
      plan
      aim
      object

As much as I like to fantasize about stuff I don't dream very often when I sleep. When I do I usually forget about it minutes after I wake up. Aaaand I don't think much about it. But lately it's different. These couple of weeks I'm 90% sure that I dream every single night. It was not a big deal. Not until most of those dreams woke me up in fear, heavily panting, screaming & even drenched in sweat & tears. Yes. Those things happened. Sadly I don't remember what went on in most of those dreams. But in some I do... 

I think it all started when I had dreams about Bapa, my heavily missed father-in-law. I forgot how many times I dreamed about him... But surely it was more than 3-4 times. I remember the dreams were nice, sweet, gentle. Just like he was... One time in my dream Bapa asked me how I was doing. He came to me & we sat together on the swing (which also happened in real life). Bapa asked me why I always look so sad & as the dream faded away, so did he... He held my shoulder as I kissed his hand & said "Jangan sedih terus ya Ka..." Then poof! Bapa was gone. I woke up in tears because I still had a lot to tell him... 😢

After that I think my dreams got weirder... And more often. One time I dreamed about running in the middle of a heavy rain because I missed/couldn't find the car! 😄 I woke up hugging myself & shivering because my clothes were wet. In real life maybe the AC were too cold! 😆 There's also this one time when I had a nightmare like a really scary one. Like...demon & such. I was terrified & I woke up panting hard. I was practically out of breath. Why? Well because in my dream I was trying to escape from that god damn monster! 😄 Do you think this happened because I watched too many scary movies? 😂 

But the scariest dream I had I must say is that particular one where I lost all my teeth. One by one... Each started crumbling into small pieces. At first I noticed one tooth started to wiggle so I pulled it out. But then one tooth fell out on to the floor! I picked it up with trembling hand. Then from the back of my mouth every single one of my tooth started to crumble! Shattered into tiny pieces! I opened my mouth & the pieces of my teeth fell on to my hands. I screamed. I was terrified! I tried to find help but nobody was there. I kept my mouth closed so the pieces won't fall out to the ground. But there were too many! And tiny! I couldn't close my mouth any longer. So I opened it... Then the shattered teeth were all over the floor & seconds later I was practically drowned in them! I screamed. Then I woke up, finding myself screaming in real life. Some dream huh?! 😅

Before I had this terrifying dream I never look up or even try to make sense of any of the dreams I had in my life. I mean it's just a dream! Well except the ones about Bapa... From the very first dream I had about him I knew it was because I missed Bapa very much. And that I am still sad about his passing. As a matter of fact I'm typing this in tears like RIGHT NOW 😅 Yeah... But the shattered teeth & others???


So I started to google about the meaning of dreams. DON'T LAUGH! 😄 You know what?!? It turns out that dreaming about loosing teeth, drenched in rain & others are actually quite common! If you search about it, you'll find the meaning of those dreams. Do I believe it? Well... I can't say that I do. But it sure is fun & quite interesting to read 😊 I guess as long as it doesn't do you any harm then why not? Keep googling! 😝 

I'm actually more interested & curious in why I dream in the first place. Also why the dreams were THAT "powerful" they made me actually do or say things for real while I was sleeping. Sometimes I wonder what would happened if I laugh or cry or scream etc when my loved ones were sleeping next to me 😆 Hubs probably won't comment about it. But my super curious teenager girl? That'll be another story to tell 😆

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