Wednesday, November 18, 2015

The Bright Side

Ever since I got sick a lot of people keep telling me that everything is going to be okay. That there will always be people who take care of me. That I shouldn’t be worried. And...that I should see the bright side of what is happening to me. 

Hmm.... The bright side... Where is that exactly? To which side should I look up to? The left? The right? Up? Or down? In front of me or maybe behind? 

The bright side.... Hmmm... What is the bright side of not being able to remember things? So far all I can think of is that..... I randomly can’t remember some of the bad things that happened to me. That’s good, isn’t it? Or that if there is a bad moment that I DO remember, a couple minutes, hours or days later I would forget about it again. Is that the bright side of my illness?????

I remember somebody once told me (And no, I don’t remember who it was) that maybe...that’s it! God gives me this illness because God knows that I couldn’t handle the problem so God takes away the ability to remember things out of my brain. HAHAHAHAHAHA! I’m actually laughing while I’m typing that last sentence! Really! :))) But hey! Who knows?!? Maybe that’s it, you know?!?!

A lot of my friends keep telling me that I’m a strong person. Some even say that they admire me! Why? Because they think that not everybody can handle this “situation” that I’m in as good as I can. Well, I don’t know. I don’t think I’m strong. Maybe I do look strong because there’s nothing else I can do. I can’t just sit around and weep all day. It’s happening already and the illness will not go away anyway. At least not any time soon. So.... Here I am. But yeah... Sometimes I do wonder and search for the bright side of all this drama. The first thing that popped up out of my mind is that... It turns out that...

I have a lot of friends.

Alhamdulillah I do :) Friends who I do see a lot, rarely or even not yet at all! I’m always surprised if somebody told me that he or she or they came to the hospital to visit me. That they tried to find out what was going on with me by contacting the people who are close to me or whether I got better or worse.  A lot of my friends also said that they are praying for me and that they are “on my side”. Now... What does it mean actually? Why does one have to be on my side? Of course I’m thanking everybody for that but... Why? Can you help me out here?? 

Anyways.... Another bright side that I do get from this....exciting chapter of my life is that now I know that I have a lot of new friends. Friends who "know" me from my blog :) My silent readers so to say. #wavingtoyou I didn't know that I do have a lot of readers until I received a lot of get-well-soon messages and prayers via e-mails and Comments and mentions on Twitters and so on. You said you've been following my stories from my blog and that you love my writings. Whether it's about me, my family, my friends or about....nonsense :))) 

I would like to thank you for it. I would like to thank you for being my reader, my friend and most of all, my bright side.


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