Doc. Rocksy Menjelaskan:

I was too excited when I met my beloved doc this month... It made me forget to record most of our conversation 😔 Thankfully I did notice that I forgot to push the record button when I was going to show her my seizures videos. But then I forgot to push the record button AGAIN after I showed her my blood test result 😅

Anyways some of our convo went like this:

dr. Rocksy: 

"...kemampuan mengira kiri-kanan, mengira 100-200m itu adalah fungsi salah satu otak sisi kanan. Namanya lobus parietal. Tapi kalau betul-betul "Kok kaya bener-bener nggak pernah liat nih!", nah itu baru di memori... Jadi agak berbeda tempatnya di otak kita."

My reaction: Berarti hampir 100% memorinya yang bermasalah ya dok? 😂

dr. Rocksy:

" 😄 Sebetulnya dari awal memang kenanya di temporal. Temporal tuh memorinya."

I also told The Rocksy about me keep forgetting people's names and faces. As example I told her about SiBapa's team members who often work at our home. Same people but still feel like strangers to me 😅

"Wajahnya inget? Bukan cuma nama tapi juga kadang-kadang ngerasa asing?"

About déjà vus:

"Nah itu ibu konsentrasinya ya... Jadi waktu itu kepikir untuk ngelakuin ini atau ngomong ini. Tapi belum sempet dilakuin udah distraksi. Jadi kadang-kadang waktu kita distraksi itu kita pikir kita sudah ngelakuin padahal belum. Nah kalau untuk yang ini kita latihannya musti lebih PELAN. Ngga boleh banyak kegiatan dalam satu waktu. Satu-satu."

The session was interesting as usual and probably also too...exciting? I forgot to take our 3-mos picture 😞 The Rocksy was very happy when I told her that I'm starting to play/learn piano again. I told her that since this rainy season began and I couldn't go outside to take my 1-hour walk around the block I started to learn a song. It's hard because of... Well... It's been a long time. I forgot most of the notes. My fingers were stiff. I couldn't concentrate. Many times my brain and fingers didn't cooperate. But I guess practice makes perfect. I almost get into the last part of the song so... Wish me luck 😊 

My blood test result is also good. 1 point was red but nothing to be worried about. I forgot what it was but I guess it's pretty much nothing. COVID-19 didn't get into the conversation at all. I take it as a good sign 😊 As for the seizures... Well... 2x/day minimum... But sometimes also none at all. Totally random. Not the foamy mouth -creepy eyes ones. Just... You know... Small seizures. Lots but... Small. We agreed that exhaustion and stress/overthinking/worry are still the main triggers... 

The rest of the conversation was too personal. Like always 😄 But this time I didn't cry! I think... 🤪 My beloved doc was happy to hear when I told her about me playing piano again. Which makes me even happier and excited to keep on practicing 😉 That's what she does to me... Dr. Rocksy. The way she says things to me about what to do and what not to do is... Soothing. She doesn't FORBID or SCARE me. Dr. Rocksy gives suggestions and she encourages me. If something goes wrong, she doesn't even say that it's my fault even if it is, or makes me feel like it is my fault. My doctor never says something like "Ibu gitu sih jadinya gini." or "Harusnya" or "Makanya".

At the end of this month's session I do remember some activities which I should keep on doing: write more, play piano, walk around the block, be with others who make me happy, make more conversations, read, draw, and... Oh! I also told dr. Rocksy that currently I'm sorta addicted to Homescapes 🤣 But I defended myself by showing her how the game goes on my iPad 😆 That it needs logical thinking, quick reaction, memory, ea. Lucky me her nurse who stood next to us nodded her head quickly and said "Oh iya tau Homescapes!" 😂 So I guess I was...safe. But then dr. Rocksy reminded me NOT to play TOO LONG. Aaaaawkaaaaaay..... 😞😅 I guess she's happier with my piano playing then gaming 🤪 Anyway... It's safe to say that my November session was alles gut. Until next time doc... Love you! 😙